So I went to the Dr. today. I needed my estrogen refilled, and I have this weird bump on my hand. Estrogen...check, weird bump on my hand is a simple cyst that they are removing it in a few weeks. BUT, this is where things go dicey for me. He talked to me frankly about my weight. He said for as heavy as I am, for my history of family heart diseas, diabetes, my high blood pressure, my history of high cholesterol and my kidney disease I am a high risk for a stroke within even the next year. For a long time I've been very unhappy about my weight, but never enough to apparently stop or change any behaviors. Today although, I'm looking at things in a new light. I honestly feel like my mind set was tweaked just a little, enough to decide to do things differently. I feel like today even, I've done things differently. Little things so i don't blow out entirely.
I was reading my friend Holli's blog and got a lot of good vibes from her and I'm excited about it. It is going to be a long hard road, but, I'm worth it. I'm sure it will be hard, but I am strong, I've been through so much in my life. I can do this. I just hope I have the support I need.